I hope this doesnt devolve into schizophrenic ramblings

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so ig i put random thoughts here. honestly it might get kinda weird. -23/07/24

At school im all pretty nice and all but once i get out im basically a different person. I feel a lot of my confidence goes away and my personality shifts a lot ig? its not multiple personality syndrome i think cus i still retain memories but i think i would be unrecognisable at school from away. - 23/07/24 21:16

Its been a while since I updated cus I was on a weird camp thing my school put me to. Speaking fo school im kinda dreading going there because the architecture drains my soul whenever i enter. The only colours in there are basically greys and blacks, the lights are also pretty dim as theyre kinda spaced pretty widely. - 28/07/24 18:19

couple days into school and ive finally adjusted, fortunately unlike the last one ive managed tomake a big healthy group of "friends". i accidentally brought my harmonica with me today and fortunately it was a fucking hit with the guys at my school. i just hope i can maintain this status. also i havent had much time to update the site recently im probably gonna work on the anime page aftee this, probably gonna write abt shimeji simulatiion this time - 31/07/24 21:05

My formerly only friend isnt talking with me much anymore, shes very close to me beign basically the only person i talk to outside of schools (ive never really talked with irl friends outside of schools outsideof her) shes been busy with schoolwork as we split schools after graduating. my school has no work at all so far. speaking of school where i live our schools dont have moving classes however my school is heavily modeled after western schools so instead of each class havign their own classrooms we gotta move around i adjusted pretty well i think. also my school is bourgeois as fuck. im starting to miss her - 01/08/24 21:03

So the new friends invited me to their discord server and i decided to do a bit of trolling hehe. honestly ig im doin well here. - 01/08/24 22:38

Well im on my own now in my huge old ass house. its getting lonely... - 02/08/24 19:41

ive been reminiscing on my old time in japan, those memories are mostly seen through the old wonderfull lens of childhood. it has been about a decade since those memories anyways haha. i also remember watching the animated anastasia movie (my favourite western animated movie). some other animated movies i liked as a child would be american tail, swan princess, balto, and 101 dalmations. I remember my old days as a kid around the age of 6 i was so blissful haha. my great grandmother used to tae me to a lot of different places but mostly she took me to some malls two of which were Tunjungan Plaza and Pasar Atum. i should revisit those places... i know this nostalgia and longing isnt the best thing to do and i shouldnt be stuck in the past and its not even like my current life is bad, compared to what i was just a few years back i now have a large healthy group of friends which is wayyyy more than old me couldve imagined haha. man those old anime i would watch... im talking like ova era. I often wish i could revisit those old days. oh and also my old friend is barely talkign to me anymore... I wish we couldve been together again, shes the only person i trusted with the more personal details of my life. - 12/08/24 22:05

Just had ayam geprek, mid. the sambel wasnt spicy at all and it was really salty for some reason, rice was really soft and it mushed together like mochi(this is bad in this case), the chicken was ok tho. overall mid meal but hey at least im full - 18/08/24 19:23

I used to wear glasses and i just found my old glasses, i put them on and i almost looked like a girl wkwk, for some reason that made me feel really good about myself - 25/09/24 20:23

I want to be a girl sometimes... - 21/10/24 21:11